Basic gym bros will tell you that trap or "old-school Eminem" is the best music to listen to you when you work out. That's fine. A good beat can push you through a tough workout.
1. “Hallowed Be Thy Name” by Iron Maiden
How many metalheads does it take to change a light bulb? They embrace the darkness. Welcome to the Jungle. Their restless creativity never ceases to amaze me. If Dream Theater had a PhD, it would be in instrument technical proficiency.
But it's the away rotations for months at a time that get really hard. For me and the woman I'm in love with, we CAN discuss it without breaking down into spittle and hate. To not do residency and leave medicine behind. That response made her very happy. Welcome to the future. We lived about miles apart for the first 2 years. We have 2 school age children. Even if he just has a weekend free, getting away, just teh two of us, helps so very much.
This lack of inclusion within the general society makes them socially awkward, especially around men. You will join the church. It sounds like you HAVE done your best in the past. It's not impossible, just painful and unlikely. No one knows your situation the way you do. If you are all sealed together, you will be together forever in the Celestial Kingdom.